PINE*am

Somehow my managers knew exactly how to schedule me for this weekend

I open friday and Saturday

Saturday I will immediately leave after work for San Jose

partake in Fanime

stay the night

get up early and hang out there

leave around 1:30-2

be back in time for work at 4

Meow meow im excited :)

God I’ve had really good days for a while. I saw Vivi graduate yesterday, I hung out with Raina while also having her meet Tony and everything we splendidly, and been just having an over all excellent time lately. 

Things are really nice for me now. I like this. 

If I could just, emulate Gilgamesh’s persona, i’d be so much happier in life. 

Bitch has no problems ever. 

The more I go back and think about it

the more i realize how little respect you ever had for me. 

God I fucking hate you. You’re possibly the most evil person i’ve ever met. 

I think after next summer, so like 2013 if I can handle up until then, I’m just going to leave. I’ll set up an appointment with a school counselor and start getting my shit together so I can just leave. I’ll get it all figure out and see if I can transfer my units to the community college in Colorado Springs and if I can, just finish up a bit here and just go there and work and finish my GE there and get residency and then go to Boulder. 

I’m fully aware that i’m just running from my problems

but I don’t know what else to do about them because I’m too scared to act on them and leaving seems like it’ll be the only way that I’m really going to let go any of this. I don’t want to keep dragging this onwards. I’m tired and everything is heavy and hurts and I just want to start somewhere new and not have to worry about anything from here. Being in a different state will give me the peace I need. I won’t have to worry about ever running into people I know that I don’t want to see or feel anxious about some stupid fucking problem from these people anymore. 

I guess that will be my goal. 

Summer 2013, I want to be out of here. 

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